Friday, April 25, 2008

2008 Day One Hundred Seventeen


This was a bad day. You would think at my age I would have figured things out by now. I have always had gypsy feet. Most of my adult life I have constantly moved, never being content to stay in one place too long. I never stay at a job more than 3 years. I've been seeking what I should be doing my entire life. I have had jobs I have loved and jobs I detested.

We have lived in Spokane the longest, since November of 1995. We have moved 4 times since living here. Now we have bought a house and maybe I'm scared because it is so permanent. I love the house, I really do...but I still want to wander from time to time. I can say in the many jobs I have had in Spokane there is not one I have truly enjoyed.

So it is no surprise that I was looking through the classifieds today looking to change again. The sad thing is I think I know what I was born to do, but, am too scared to actually do it. Not enough stability in it. Too many bills and expenses to not be stable.

I have given up the someday I will pull this all together and have a fabulous career. Tomorrow will be a better day.

3 comments:

Betty said...

Sorry you haven't had a good day. Linda, was your Dad a military man making a career out of the service? If so, then maybe that's why you always want to keep moving and changing where you live and where you work. Just a thought.

Brave Sir Robin said...

Linda,

So what is it you should be doing?

I, like you it seems, am not destined to be able to do the thing I was made to do.

Real life often gets in the way, doesn't it?

Christina said...

Yeah. Same here. I didn't say, "When I grow up I want to be a secretary!"

I keep hoping against hope that someday, I can do what I want to do.